Though I had grown up in a Christian church all my life, I still had a misconception about what it meant to be saved. Hidden beneath my smile and outgoing personality was a woman bound by depression, suffering from low self-esteem, and overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy. I hid my distress very well, thus neither friends nor family knew how emotionally unstable I was. But God had placed two beautiful guardian angels in my life my children and I couldn't bear the thought of leaving them behind without a mother. Yes, me a woman with two bachelors degrees, a masters degree, good credit, a loving family, and a promising career with the state of Ohio.
I did not like myself, and many times contemplated suicide. I found myself making one mistake after another, thus adding guilt on top of guilt. I had begun doing and saying things that I never imagined of myself. I was at a place in my life where I would stand in front of the mirror and see a stranger. In the spring of 2001, I gave my life to Christ after hitting what I call, rock bottom. This scripture has become very real to me. "eek ye first the Kingdom of God, and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you." (Matthew 6:33).
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